Today is a new day for me. Ive decided to start over. Give myself a second chance. Because I feel that if I'm to ever deserve a second chance from anyone else in this world I must first let myself feel that I am worth that chance to begin with. In this past year, so much has changed in my life. Everything is upside down from the way that it used to be. Ive endured more pain than i thought was ever possible. But the fact of the matter is, at the end of this all, I'm Still Standing.
Looking back now i see how much I've changed. Some of it for the good, but also some for the bad. And I plan to change the bad parts starting today. Don't get me wrong, i know that no matter what i do some flaws will remain. No one is perfect. But having said that, i try to be completely honest with myself. And in doing so i realize there is so much that i do not like about myself. So much that i would like to change. I desire to be a better person not just on the outside but on the inside as well. I believe that if i try hard enough, change will happen. So long as I'm persistent.
I know that i have a long journey ahead of me. Many miles of steps to take. No ones holding my hand this time. I walk alone. But that's something that Ive always done, which is something Ive decided I will change. Which is why i created this blog in the first place. Ive began to completely keep to myself. Sheltering my feelings and thoughts from those around me. From those who care about me. I'm now reaching out, teaching myself to once again be just a little more open. I consider this my first step.I need to do embark on this journey, not for anyone else but myself. I need this. And from here on out, i will begin to question my motives and thoughts.
